July 9, 2015
To all my friends going through tribulations at the moment, and all the people that may stumble across this that are also going through trials, let this be a PSA to stay strong and know that you are not alone. These words may be cliche but the truth behind them is not. This will not be the end of you, there will be more layers of you shed but you will still remain.
I have crazy anxieties and I've hit trials that have knocked me on my ass for many months and I felt so alone for so long. I downplayed every issue I had and wouldn't talk to anyone because I couldn't stand the thought of burdening any of my friends. None of my problems seemed valid enough to bring up and because of that they ate me inside out. It changed who I was and how I saw things. After a long period, things subtly started to change and I was slowly being drug out of the darkness and I've been able to look back at that time. I wish that I had been able to talk to someone and I know there were plenty of people that I could have approached. I was too afraid to bring it up. Getting the courage to talk to someone doesn't make the trial go away faster but it will help you fight through it. There will be different ways through each tribulation and I can't specifically talk about each one but having a hand to hold and a shoulder to lean on will make a dramatic difference. Believe me.
This thing will not destroy you. I promise you. Look at how old you are, look at how many terrible things have hit you, look how you've hit back, look how you're STILL here, all those trials haven't taken you out yet, and I guarantee you, this one won't either. Sometimes life happens and because of that certain situations follow no matter what you do, you can't avoid everything. So take a deep breath, bounce up and down, throw a few punches, get the blood pumping, burst through those doors ready to knock life down. You've done it before, you can do it again and there is always help if it's a two person battle or a three person battle or an entire squad battle. Ask for the help you secretly want.
If you're reading this then let me tell you that I love you.