What keeps you alive?
What Keeps You Alive?
Not literally. Although, that is a fascinating question in its own respect. I meant, what keeps you wanting to wake up and tackle life every day? That’s a pretty daunting question, I know. Sometimes that answer changes; hell, I find it’s different almost every day! Allow me to get more specific because I find as I try to formulate my thoughts they come out too broad for proper introspection:
What thought or feeling or daydream do you catch yourself repeatedly going back to throughout your day that provides that burst of life?
Can you picture it? Can you see yourself basking in the sunlight, relaxing on the world’s most comfortable reclining lounge chair, habituating that perfect spot next to a crystal clear pool that’s dancing to the breeze, singing birds fill the air space above you, and your whole day is there for the taking? Can you see the progress you’re making on that piece of artwork that blows your breath away every single glance you steal; the one that you can’t wait to finish? Can you feel the controller in your hand of your favorite video game blasting in front you with your closest friends? Can you sense your heart beat increase when you think of the smile on your crush’s face knowing you’re the reason their smile is lighting up the world? Or maybe that alternate life you always wanted to live that’s capable between the pages of a captivating book?
What is it that keeps you alive? Can you narrow it down to one thing? That’s not easy to do, even for me, I admit it. I’m not even sure it’s worth trying to narrow down since having multiple things that breathe life into your world is a glorious luxury not meant to be questioned. However, I do find it fascinating how often my thoughts sway to reoccurring daydreams that bring me out of a lull, that fill my desire tank with gasoline to ignite the fire of my passions, that make my face hurt from unexpected smiling, that cause my arms to twitch with energy. These dreams have a sense of power; a necessary power. They can keep the aches of sitting in a chair all day at bay, knowing the paycheck you earn is worth the vacation to Universal Studios for a handful of days where you’ll be staying in a resort and being treated like royalty. These thoughts and feelings and dreams taunt us like a donkey with a carrot in front of its face, but that can be a tool to push yourself even harder. I need my imagination to conjure glimpses of future realities because it becomes a goal worth the struggles. Having something to fight for and something to keep me alive is everything; and I remember times when there wasn’t a single thing I could find worthy enough to wake me up.
Be wary o virtuous traveler! These thoughts, feelings, or daydreams can sap the life out of you just as the sun provides life, so does it melt the wings of Icarus with death. I suggest letting these things fuel your drive to work your ass off and make them a reality, but do not let the dreams of greener grass prevent you from loving every particle of your current situation. It is imperative, and I repeat, IT IS IMPERATIVE to not let moments like this take over your mindset and plague your current life. It is a quick and dangerous slope to loathing your current situation which will seep into your life path making it more and more difficult to get back to happy sunlight. By all means, bask in the future prospects and fight tooth and nail to get there, but lounge with balanced contentment where you are now.
So, what keeps you alive?